im feeling rubbish again, now that i have no meds again, i rang the docs before and asked if i could have anymore and she said to ring back again at 4.30 to find out, i know the answer will be a no and as for how im feeling after the treament at hosp im feeling quite rough tbh, my stomache is sore, and lower back and loads of discharge but i think this is all normal, im not allowed to bath for 4 weeks
im allowed to shower, but not got one lol just hate waiting on the results.How are you doing? i hope everything is good for you xx
I dont mind you asking at all, thanks im sure (kinda) the results will come back fine, i understand were you are coming from its hard when you are anxious and you have the kids wanting your attention and being around you, i find im very irratable when im anxious so i cant stand people talking or being around me, i just want to be on my own, i also feel like a horrible mum, but we are not brandie, were just going through a difficult time at the moment and being anxious 24/7 dosnt help as we dont get a break from it at all, try not to blame yourself for how your daughter is reacting, maybe shes just got all her hormones running around her body already, i have a 10 year old daughter to and at times she can be stroppy but i dont think its cause of my anxiety i just think shes growing up, is there no way you and your daughter can have time on your own one or 2 days in the week, to get to know eachother again and enjoy eachothers company? and yes i agree if we could control the anxiety and panic, it would be alot easier to deal with the kids as we wouldnt be fighting the constant worry of panic as well as the children.
I totally understand about the partner problem, what seems simple to him is so hard for me yet he thinks i should be able to do it and we often argue about stuff to do with the disorder, my partner has also said things along the lines of it all being in my head, or that im making it up ect ect as for losing all hope, i think my relationship with my partner is over, we are both here for different reason and none of those is deep love for eachother, last week i was at one of my lowest points so at this time he decides tell me that he isnt in love with me anymore, he tells me im a useless partner and mum alot, so im just waiting to get better to get out of the relationship but i dont know how to get better with him putting me down so much.
I think all it takes is one attack for some people, ive only had 2 "big" attacks both when i was out but i have alot of little ones, i dont drive myself so i dont know why it helps you but ive seen people saying driving helps tham as they have to concentrate, can you not get in the car and go for a long drive when your feeling anxious and just need a break? could your husband not mind the kids while you do that?
I wish you the best of luck to hun and your right we cant let this beat us, we have to be strong and know that one day we will beat it and get back our lives that we have missed out on so far, i hope the meds you are on are working for you xx